Friday, September 14, 2012
Hello Everyone! It's John's Wife Maria!!!!
Hi everyone! This is John's wife! I am writing today to tell you how much I LOVE my husband everyday and even though he is sick, he has been taking care of me through my whole pregnancy. He has been wanting me to get on his blog and write a post but being pregnant makes you very tired and cranky. But I would like to tell you that it is so amazing to have a precious baby growing inside of you. Though it is amazing going through invitro, it is the hardest thing I have ever done. From the time you have to do the shots, to wondering if you going to have enough eggs, to praying that your embryos survive to make it to day three to get a biopsy, and to the time you walk in the doctors on the day of transfer not knowing if any of your babies are healthy. On this day, it is like finding out how many of your little babies have cf and how many don't. This was very hard for me because I loved every single baby. But the worries do not end there! I had the long two week wait to see if the embryos took which means countless amounts of pregnancy test just to reassure my self that the line did not disappear as did my first invitro where I miscarried. Then I had my first blood test that showed positive but that doesn't mean anything because the doctors want you to come back to see if the numbers increase to ensure a healthy pregnancy. As we all know it showed positive both times but this still was not enough. Now you have to wait to see the heart beat. This was one the scariest experiences, walking into the doctors not knowing if you baby has a heart beat. Luckily she did which is one of the best memories ever!! Let me tell you, this was so hard worrying if my baby would make it. But for me it did not end here. I still worry constantly about the stupid things in life such as eating the wrong things to the way I sleep at night. Sounds crazy, I know! But I never want to lose my baby or my husband so I worry and hold on to them as tight as I can. I think part of being a cf wife is being a worry wort! Being pregnant is not so bad it is just all the worries I have on top of worrying about my husband getting sick. So far the worrying is far worse then puking the first trimester to round ligament pain and sleepless nights. Though this has been hard, this is the best experience I have ever done. Alayna will always have a piece of here daddy which i know will make her the strongest little girl alive. This is just a brief experience but I would like to tell you it is worth it. I would also like to thank my husband for being there for me because I know it is hard being around my crazy self. I mean CRAZY! I love you John and I know our daughter will have the best daddy in the world! As i am writing this Alayna is kicking like crazy! Thank you everyone for supporting my husband. Your support helps my husband get through each day knowing he is not alone!! Sorry for the typos and grammar mistakes. Love you John!!!!